Month: June 2019

Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Not a post related directly to my mental illness, but rather my passion for learning. Interesting, I thought. It also makes me love learning and education even more. SO here goes a repost. A new study by researchers at UC Berkeley's Haas School of Business has found that information acts on the brain's dopamine-producing reward … Continue reading Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Sad, but Anger Protects Me: A Post on Relationships and the Myth of Mental Illness and Lack of Intelligence

I think it is amazing that people can "accept" (as much as they can) that I have issues controlling my anger when I am hurt; yet, when things are hard for them, my mental health is supposed to magically get better and my reactive behaviors of course are supposed to cease.  I am very well … Continue reading Sad, but Anger Protects Me: A Post on Relationships and the Myth of Mental Illness and Lack of Intelligence

-Is It Paranoia?- A Message as I Wait At the Pharmacy

I know they are looking at me with judgmental eyes... I heard the disgust towards me in the tones of their voice, in their lack of greeting, and it is like a billion daggers straight into my soul. It. Hurts. I am ashamed. Not so much because I care what people think of me... I … Continue reading -Is It Paranoia?- A Message as I Wait At the Pharmacy

Always to be an Orphan… Unnoticed

A rant written on my iPhone in the emergency room a few days ago, while waiting to learn how the woman I view as a mother was going to fair. There are other "parental" emotions and such involved but I won't go into those details. I am simply posting this because I hope it will serve the purpose of … Continue reading Always to be an Orphan… Unnoticed

I Feel It ALL- Make It GO AWAY… I’m Sorry…

I have a post that I guess is more informative and interesting... But that'll be later posted. This is a spontaneous, pointless rant out of fear... A painful fear I can't explain. I didn't think of how death of a loved one would impact me as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) until someone very … Continue reading I Feel It ALL- Make It GO AWAY… I’m Sorry…

Who I Am… Sort Of.

A reality I hate, but my reality nevertheless. First, I guess given this is my first post I will do a brief introduction. I am a female, an addict and terrified. I say with shame (due to societies misunderstanding, I believe) I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)- (self destructive). It hurts when I tell people … Continue reading Who I Am… Sort Of.