Category: Purpose

Is It I’m Going Too Slow, Doing Too Much, Or Perhaps I’m Doing Suspended In Nothingness?

I am very angry at myself over this. Any feedback would be very much appreciated, if anyone relates or if anyone has advice, either comments, tumblr, email... Please... let me know if I am being weak? Is THIS The Problem? Since I was 14 I have been devoted to nothing but fighting racism in the … Continue reading Is It I’m Going Too Slow, Doing Too Much, Or Perhaps I’m Doing Suspended In Nothingness?

Introduction- A Death Wish; Nice Long Trial of Suicide Posts.

I am ready to die. But I know it is not my time; I am here, I have knowledge and I think it may one day, I hope, help others. I am not looking for attention. I truly hope to help. So until the day that I cannot take the hurt, abandonment, misunderstandings of how … Continue reading Introduction- A Death Wish; Nice Long Trial of Suicide Posts.

How The Spirits Guide Me… personal post

I know many will think I’m crazy; if you do not believe in spiritual studies, etc I respect that but I ask you to please keep it to yourself or don’t read my page. I force this on no one 😊 I felt the need to share, so… I share. I am very spiritual; like … Continue reading How The Spirits Guide Me… personal post

The Curse of The Past & Future

Dr. Fox talks about one big challenge for borderlines (and I suppose any severe mental illness) is when we make progress and step forward, those around us push us down. Expecting the same thing as before, they give nothing positive and cry out in a manner that is trying to predict the future; a future … Continue reading The Curse of The Past & Future

Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

I’ve read some people talking about how Ketamine infusion impacted them in some weird ways, so I just thought I’d share what happened with me. I'll write out my full experience in the future, but right now there are some things I've noticed different that I feel are good changes. Since I had my infusion, … Continue reading Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Not a post related directly to my mental illness, but rather my passion for learning. Interesting, I thought. It also makes me love learning and education even more. SO here goes a repost. A new study by researchers at UC Berkeley's Haas School of Business has found that information acts on the brain's dopamine-producing reward … Continue reading Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Who I Am… Sort Of.

A reality I hate, but my reality nevertheless. First, I guess given this is my first post I will do a brief introduction. I am a female, an addict and terrified. I say with shame (due to societies misunderstanding, I believe) I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)- (self destructive). It hurts when I tell people … Continue reading Who I Am… Sort Of.