Category: Self Destruction

When/Why I Believe Half of My Fighting Spirit Died….

The other half is a bit more in depth and a hell of a lot longer in regards to post length so.... I just hope I can revive that part of myself. Fear guards me. Fear that stems from self hate, I believe. I want to go back to the days of being in a … Continue reading When/Why I Believe Half of My Fighting Spirit Died….

Emotional Changes, Please Understand

I cannot say how many 'friends' I have lost, how many people I have let down nor how many times I've let myself down because of the above quote. This is one of the most embarrassing and frustrating it is to not be able to maintain a consistent state of mind. My emotions can change … Continue reading Emotional Changes, Please Understand

I’m Terrified, So I’ll Just Text You… So You Know -BPD Story Time

I'm going to call this an "impulse post" because I'm going to write this instead of being impulsive and doing things that I've noticed over the years a) most others don't do or understand and b) it tends to cause more problems than what it is worth. What am I talking about? So! Let's back … Continue reading I’m Terrified, So I’ll Just Text You… So You Know -BPD Story Time

Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

I’ve read some people talking about how Ketamine infusion impacted them in some weird ways, so I just thought I’d share what happened with me. I'll write out my full experience in the future, but right now there are some things I've noticed different that I feel are good changes. Since I had my infusion, … Continue reading Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

Borderline Personality Disorder, Self Destructive Sub Type

I want to share this in case anyone is interested...  Of course, being on the severe end of BPD I do have traits in all 4 sub-types. However, it is overwhelmingly clear my diagnosis is 100% self destructive. I have every thing on that ... check list, where as the others I may have one … Continue reading Borderline Personality Disorder, Self Destructive Sub Type