Finally, A Decent Article on BPD For Non-BPDs

This is the most relevant article I've yet to read that isn't scholarly on Borderline Personality Disorder. I struggle to speak out on my own due to the misconceptions and untrue, negative myths that we are some manipulative, abusive monsters. So in an attempt to at least speak out in a positive way, the below … Continue reading Finally, A Decent Article on BPD For Non-BPDs

The Forgotten Importance of Familiarity

"It wore the tread of visitors trickling in and out to spend time with us. It echoed the crying — it amplified the laughter. It kept bending and creasing, like a giant old sweatshirt, to be exactly what we needed when we didn’t even know what we needed."See link below. That quote is so perfect; the emotion, the … Continue reading The Forgotten Importance of Familiarity

Emotional Changes, Please Understand

I cannot say how many 'friends' I have lost, how many people I have let down nor how many times I've let myself down because of the above quote. This is one of the most embarrassing and frustrating it is to not be able to maintain a consistent state of mind. My emotions can change … Continue reading Emotional Changes, Please Understand

Falling Inside The Black

There is no understanding of what it is to lose control. Perhaps it is just too far beyond others comprehension, that a mental illness can actually cause severely disrupting problems... Or, maybe they are just too good to be bothered by it. Maybe everything was just a joke and a lie all along. I don't … Continue reading Falling Inside The Black

You Think You’re Ready For It? Let’s Go.

Please, for respect of me, and my mental state atm, if you don't first hear the full song/lyrics...and understand that is, again, word for word me... please do not continue reading. Even if you have heard it a trillion times... This one time playing; if you want inside my mind and heart; or a ...gateway … Continue reading You Think You’re Ready For It? Let’s Go.

Are You Broken and/or Judged on Your Past, Too? Here’s My Plan. You’re not alone.

Nor are you necessarily "bad"- changing behaviors, appreciated or not, acknowledged or not, doing your best, but getting nothing but shit all still means you are trying and that is a hell of a lot more than most people can say. With that said, don't be so quick to blame yourself. Words are beautiful; especially … Continue reading Are You Broken and/or Judged on Your Past, Too? Here’s My Plan. You’re not alone.

Ramblings

I find myself feeling very sad and guilty that I am unable to focus on what are very important tasks in my activism. I am not sure if this is an accurate statement or if this is just my attempt to make myself feel better, but I recall when I was 13 or so someone … Continue reading Ramblings