The Curse of The Past & Future

Dr. Fox talks about one big challenge for borderlines (and I suppose any severe mental illness) is when we make progress and step forward, those around us push us down. Expecting the same thing as before, they give nothing positive and cry out in a manner that is trying to predict the future; a future … Continue reading The Curse of The Past & Future

Advice For Those Working With/Helping BPD

Borderlines are misunderstood and incorrectly judged by stereotypes made by false information, or the attention the dramatic, manipulative, abusive BPD's get. Once a doctor learns the subtype that is dominant in their patient, the most hurtful thing they can do with a patient trying their best is accuse them of being something they are not. … Continue reading Advice For Those Working With/Helping BPD

I’m Terrified, So I’ll Just Text You… So You Know -BPD Story Time

I'm going to call this an "impulse post" because I'm going to write this instead of being impulsive and doing things that I've noticed over the years a) most others don't do or understand and b) it tends to cause more problems than what it is worth. What am I talking about? So! Let's back … Continue reading I’m Terrified, So I’ll Just Text You… So You Know -BPD Story Time

Our Suffering, For Your Entertainment?

Dr Van Velsen has made a study of Hollywood's treatment of mental illness over the past six decades and has found that the movie-makers almost always get it wrong. "Mentally ill people are often wrongly portrayed as violent and that perpetuates the myths about all or the majority of patients being violent. In The Silence … Continue reading Our Suffering, For Your Entertainment?

Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

I’ve read some people talking about how Ketamine infusion impacted them in some weird ways, so I just thought I’d share what happened with me. I'll write out my full experience in the future, but right now there are some things I've noticed different that I feel are good changes. Since I had my infusion, … Continue reading Day 1 – Quick Look at Differences At My First Ketamine Infusion

Borderline Personality Disorder, Self Destructive Sub Type

I want to share this in case anyone is interested...  Of course, being on the severe end of BPD I do have traits in all 4 sub-types. However, it is overwhelmingly clear my diagnosis is 100% self destructive. I have every thing on that ... check list, where as the others I may have one … Continue reading Borderline Personality Disorder, Self Destructive Sub Type

BPD “Anger” – It’s A Protective Mask; But Who Remembers That?

One of the hardest things for me to live with is my inability to turn my defenses off except under certain circumstances; i.e., my being alone for a period of time. Off and on people come and go and may understand that when I say I need to be alone, I mean, I need to be … Continue reading BPD “Anger” – It’s A Protective Mask; But Who Remembers That?

Stable and Unstable Support; I Feel Guilty For Even Wishing I Had it, So This is a Vent Post I Suppose

I apologize for my delay in writing recently. I felt guilty for trying to express myself to an invisible audience, one which I hope my insane posts may reach and help in any way even if it is just to help others know you do not struggle alone. It prompted my writing (or beginning to … Continue reading Stable and Unstable Support; I Feel Guilty For Even Wishing I Had it, So This is a Vent Post I Suppose