-Borderline Personality Disorder- The 4 Differing Groups or Types. Not all people with BPD Are The Same- Please Try to Understand Us-

This doctor, Dr. Fox, is a mental health professional and specialist, especially regarding Borderline Personality Disorder. He speaks with RESPECT & KINDNESS towards those of us who suffer... He is VERY understanding, compassion and intelligence about borderline and those of us who suffer from the disorder. He also is great at trying to explain BPD … Continue reading -Borderline Personality Disorder- The 4 Differing Groups or Types. Not all people with BPD Are The Same- Please Try to Understand Us-

On My Intentions & Life Altering Fear-

I don't understand how my sincere attempts of goodness and love seem to find a way this past year of always backfiring on me, creating some form of....painful backfire right to the soul. I can have the best of intentions, but when any emotion is "out of whack" with what I know it normally is … Continue reading On My Intentions & Life Altering Fear-

Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Not a post related directly to my mental illness, but rather my passion for learning. Interesting, I thought. It also makes me love learning and education even more. SO here goes a repost. A new study by researchers at UC Berkeley's Haas School of Business has found that information acts on the brain's dopamine-producing reward … Continue reading Scientifically Proven! The Human Brain Responds to LEARNING In The Same Manner As it Reacts to Taking Drugs

Sad, but Anger Protects Me: A Post on Relationships and the Myth of Mental Illness and Lack of Intelligence

I think it is amazing that people can "accept" (as much as they can) that I have issues controlling my anger when I am hurt; yet, when things are hard for them, my mental health is supposed to magically get better and my reactive behaviors of course are supposed to cease.  I am very well … Continue reading Sad, but Anger Protects Me: A Post on Relationships and the Myth of Mental Illness and Lack of Intelligence

-Is It Paranoia?- A Message as I Wait At the Pharmacy

I know they are looking at me with judgmental eyes... I heard the disgust towards me in the tones of their voice, in their lack of greeting, and it is like a billion daggers straight into my soul. It. Hurts. I am ashamed. Not so much because I care what people think of me... I … Continue reading -Is It Paranoia?- A Message as I Wait At the Pharmacy

Always to be an Orphan… Unnoticed

A rant written on my iPhone in the emergency room a few days ago, while waiting to learn how the woman I view as a mother was going to fair. There are other "parental" emotions and such involved but I won't go into those details. I am simply posting this because I hope it will serve the purpose of … Continue reading Always to be an Orphan… Unnoticed

I Feel It ALL- Make It GO AWAY… I’m Sorry…

I have a post that I guess is more informative and interesting... But that'll be later posted. This is a spontaneous, pointless rant out of fear... A painful fear I can't explain. I didn't think of how death of a loved one would impact me as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) until someone very … Continue reading I Feel It ALL- Make It GO AWAY… I’m Sorry…

Who I Am… Sort Of.

A reality I hate, but my reality nevertheless. First, I guess given this is my first post I will do a brief introduction. I am a female, an addict and terrified. I say with shame (due to societies misunderstanding, I believe) I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)- (self destructive). It hurts when I tell people … Continue reading Who I Am… Sort Of.